Whether you began here

or here,

your goal was this

and eventually this.

But something went terribly wrong.

So you’ve spent more time here

and here

than you planned.

When they call to ask about her,

you tell them.

When they neglect to ask about you,

you think, It’s okay. I’m okay.

And when they say things like:

“God has a plan”

“Time heals all wounds”

“Everything happens for a reason”

you remember they say it for themselves.

Because…

there. are. no. words.

You try to give her this

and this,

but nothing helps.

And you find yourself here

caught between these.

You remember life before,

when this word was everywhere

instead of this one.

And the two of you looked like this

instead of this.

Wherever you are on your journey…

whether you’ve chosen this

or this,

I hope you’ve found a way to honor your babies

and each other.

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